{"id":797,"date":"2007-10-01T14:54:31","date_gmt":"2007-10-01T13:54:31","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/dickonedwards.co.uk\/diary\/index.php\/archive\/drowning\/"},"modified":"2007-10-01T17:26:39","modified_gmt":"2007-10-01T16:26:39","slug":"drowning","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.dickonedwards.com\/diary\/index.php\/archive\/drowning\/","title":{"rendered":"Drowning"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>My original aim, to clear out all the unprocessed paperwork before Thursday, is looking rather optimistic to say the least. There&#8217;s just so MUCH of it all.<\/p>\n<p>How much do I keep?<\/p>\n<p>How much must anyone keep?<\/p>\n<p>Just threw out a huge file of work from Bristol Old Vic  Theatre School, my one and only period as a full-time student, 1990-1992. It represents two year&#8217;s worth of note-taking on their Technical Theatre course, covering the techniques of lighting, sound, stage management, and so on. A waste of time? Well&#8230; I&#8217;m unlikely to start on that particular career path now, so I guess it has to go. I wasn&#8217;t particularly good at any of it, and I have no innate desire to jump-start such meagre skills.<\/p>\n<p>I can&#8217;t possibly keep it, because if I do it means keeping everything else I&#8217;m not using at the present. Like every school exercise book.<\/p>\n<p>Here&#8217;s a CV written circa 1993, when I was looking for work.  Any work. Used it to get an office job, from which I was sacked a few months later for non-attendance due to sheer despair. Do I keep it?<\/p>\n<p>This is what comes of viewing the boxes as me, rather than the person I used to be. And it&#8217;s turning into a tear-stained, madness-inducing exercise.  I feel completely all at sea. And drowning. Help.<\/p>\n<p>What do I do with the school grades and certificates of GCSEs? The school reports? How many photos? I know one must be brutal with anything not being used right now, but&#8230; will I ever need to mention my GCSE results at any point in the future?<\/p>\n<p>The clutter-clearance books (which are taking up too much space&#8230;) say you must throw out everything connected with any periods of your life that represent frustration and unhappiness.<\/p>\n<p>Fill in the wry retort yourself.<\/p>\n<p>Oh, okay then. Some school report quotes. Great Cornad Upper, Summer Term, 1986.<\/p>\n<p>Maths: &#8216;Sometimes Dickon forgets that he is not the only pupil in the class!&#8217;<\/p>\n<p>English: &#8216;He has a great talent for this subject. He has a range of vocabulary, a precision of technique and a maturity of thought and expression which makes his work a pleasure to read. There is, occasionally, a tendency to over-elaborate&#8230;&#8217;<\/p>\n<p>Chemistry: &#8216;&#8230; he must learn to be a little less intense&#8230; Relax a bit, it&#8217;s good for you!&#8217;<\/p>\n<p>Geography: &#8216;I think he would benefit by spending a little less time debating more minor issues&#8230;&#8217;<\/p>\n<p>Incredibly the PE report is favourable, and mentions me knowing my limitations but still doing my best. The Headmaster singles this out for his comment on my whole term.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m going to have a cup of tea, then go for a walk. And then I&#8217;m going to try and tackle the piles again.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>My original aim, to clear out all the unprocessed paperwork before Thursday, is looking rather optimistic to say the least. There&#8217;s just so MUCH of it all. How much do I keep? How much must anyone keep? 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