{"id":2605,"date":"2012-02-29T02:51:10","date_gmt":"2012-02-29T01:51:10","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.dickonedwards.com\/diary\/?p=2605"},"modified":"2012-02-29T02:56:07","modified_gmt":"2012-02-29T01:56:07","slug":"chains-of-ones-own","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.dickonedwards.com\/diary\/index.php\/archive\/chains-of-ones-own\/","title":{"rendered":"Chains Of One’s Own"},"content":{"rendered":"

Overslept for most of the morning – again<\/em>. Possibly because I didn’t put the heater on before sleeping, thinking it was getting mild enough not to. I think my body goes into a kind of hibernation mode when it’s cold\u00c2\u00a0under<\/em>\u00c2\u00a0the duvet – as if it says to itself, ‘go back to sleep until it’s warmer’.<\/p>\n

Regardless, I forget it’s not good enough to just fall asleep. You have to plan<\/em>\u00c2\u00a0your sleep. First alarm set, 2nd alarm set, maybe a post-it note by the bed shouting at me not to go back to bed after I’ve gotten out to turn the alarm off. I need all these things and more.<\/p>\n

I’ve heard interviews with people talking about having rewarding\u00c2\u00a0jobs. The phrase they use is ‘it’s what gets you out of bed in the morning’.<\/p>\n

I think the only time I’ve had that feeling is when I know I’m going on a trip the next day, particularly abroad. That<\/em>\u00c2\u00a0gets me up. Otherwise, well, my college classes are in the evening, which doesn’t help.<\/p>\n

I’m actually having special ‘study skills’ sessions about this, aimed purely at people with dyspraxia. In my case, it’s about getting me anchored<\/em>\u00c2\u00a0in my own sense of time, rather than just drifting through the days.<\/p>\n

Another modern phrase – often used to describe unemployed young people – is ‘having no stake in society’. I go further than that. I feel like I have no stake in time<\/em>. But I know I’m best suited to living alone and working alone, so I have to shackle myself with ‘chains of one’s own making’, as Quentin Crisp put it.<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

Class tonight was on London Assurance<\/em>, the Victorian comedy. Then I went straight to the Muswell Hill Odeon to see The Artist<\/em>. Aside from the novelty of being a silent film in black and white, the plot is so simple that the film should really be a lot more lightweight than it really is. But the charisma of the two leads is mesmerising – you never tire of their faces. And there’s a few scenes which are particularly inventive and unexpected, such as a dream sequence. A perfect film, really.<\/p>\n

Cost of cinema ticket: \u00a37.50.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Overslept for most of the morning – again. Possibly because I didn’t put the heater on before sleeping, thinking it was getting mild enough not to. I think my body goes into a kind of hibernation mode when it’s cold\u00c2\u00a0under\u00c2\u00a0the duvet – as if it says to itself, ‘go back to sleep until it’s warmer’. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[454,453],"class_list":["post-2605","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-getting-up","tag-the-artist"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.dickonedwards.com\/diary\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2605","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.dickonedwards.com\/diary\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.dickonedwards.com\/diary\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.dickonedwards.com\/diary\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.dickonedwards.com\/diary\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2605"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/www.dickonedwards.com\/diary\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2605\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2607,"href":"https:\/\/www.dickonedwards.com\/diary\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2605\/revisions\/2607"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.dickonedwards.com\/diary\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2605"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.dickonedwards.com\/diary\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2605"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.dickonedwards.com\/diary\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2605"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}